haiz.. juz nw nothing do.. went to read all those dings i blogged few months back.. while reading, i smile.. coz i remembered all those small little funny ding dat happened during work.. few months back i was still a part-time crew.. now, i'm a part-time manager.. haiz.

i reli missed those funs i had when i was juz a staff. things reli changed. haiz. i duno is my position changed dat lead to all this kind of changes or she reli changed. it seems like those laughters would nv be heard again.. those lame ding dat we did wld nv be done again.. if i were to be given e choice again, i would not take up e position of being a part-time mgr.. i rather dun've dat stepping stone than letting things turn out to be like wat it is now.. but everyding is too late.. no point i regret.. haiz. perhaps i shld look on e bright side.. maybe this is e opportunity given to mi to c how strong this frenship is.. i still rmb in 1 of my past posts i mentioned dat time wld determine how strong this frenship is. "mei you xiang dao" onli a few months e ans is out..

i'm reli tired. i took so many tries to save e frenship.. i explained to her so many times. she still tink e way she tinks.. i reli cant do anyding.. i dun wish to lose this frenship.. i knew dat she is tired of explaining dings again and again.. but "nan dao" this frenship dun worth e effort for her to explain?

she said my expectation for fren is too high.. haiz.. she said i duno her well... haiz.. she tot dat i always try to make small ding into big big dings.. haiz.. she tink dat little ding onli i angry.. haiz.. argh!!!! @#$#%&%&$$#!$$#@$#%#@@!!!! duno lah.. i oso dun wish ding to turn out to be like dat.. c ding like dat i oso sian.. but since i alrdy tried so many times.. den i tink there is nth much i can do liao.. but we are still frens lah.. juz normal hi-bye frens bah.. the crack is there alrdy.. how to mend e crack depend on e both of us.. of coz i wld put in my fullest effort to mend it if she wants to.. it takes two hands to clap.. i cant juz do it by myself.. now? sit back and relax lor.. c how ding goes bah~ i juz wish dat wateva choice she make and whicheva path she choose, she wld be happy.. juz wish her good luck.. maybe w/o mi this fren she wld be more happier? who knows...

haiz.. shldnt go read thru all those past posts.. made mi feel so emotional now.. haiz.. tink i stop here le lah.. contiune somemore wld onli make mi more low morale..