Wow... long long time nv blog liao.. haha.. now too free liao.. so come and blog.. or maybe i got too much ding to let out??

haiz.. lots of ding happened for the past 2 months.. problems fr all aspect juz gang up and attacked mi together at the same time.. i always tot dat i am strong.. i can withstand any problems dat come by.. but there is always a limit...... ...... ......

now, i am better.. getting back to myself.. forcing myself to smile everyday and everytime i c my frens.. but lucky i'm someone who can tok cock well.. so each time i tok cock i wld forget abt my problems.. hahaha.. not so chiam..

now i am trying hard not to stay at home.. try to stay out everyday to avoid all those freaking family problems.. i knew those problems will nv be solved until e day i finish my studies and went out to work.. now i started to feel scare.. started to be afraid.. wat am i going to do in e near future? i polu result sucks... i reli regret for being so slackish.. but it's too late..

now oso trying to catch up wid my studies.. CT is going on. i shld be studying for tml's paper now.. but i am too lady to do dat.. haiz. tink nd to last min again le bah~ last friday had 1 paper.. dat paper i put ina lot of effort to study.. and i finally got e kick out of it and keep on practicing the tutorial hwk and classwork.. i was even able to teach my classmate.. in e end? e paper turn out to be a damn tricky 1.. fuck man~! it reli demoralised mi.. i dun study, come out easy easy 1 which onli requires mi to study den can do liao.. i study den.... .... haiz.

work wise.. i dun reli care.. juz do wateva and i shld and datz it. but sad to say.. some of my khakis are wanting to quit.. trying hard to keep dem down.. but of coz.. i cant force dem to stay.. it wld b a bery selfish action.. juz hope dat dey wld be able to find a better job after dey left..

ytd i watch e "xing lai yun zuan"(Lucky Charm), the Ch8 show.. e story quite good. i begin to got stuck to dat show.. haha.. part of e story is abt 2 good frens was so touching.. their frenship is so strong.. dey can sacrifice for each other coz dey regard each other as best fren.. when i watch dat, i begin to tink.. in this world reli got such a good fren? i tink have bah.. coz i believe i can do it for my best fren too.. so i believe it does exist.

i knew dat e frenship between mi and her wld nv b e same again.. haiz. it still pains mi to c dings turn out to be in this way.. "time can heal.. time can also make feeling fade..." this was wat my classmate Jac told me.. becoz of this i took my last attempt to save e frenship. i dun wish to have any regret in the future.. sad to say.. e outcome is still e same.. nothing except my heart change.. it turns cold.. i decided to let this frenship be wat it 1 2 be.. i knew no matter how hard i tried, it will nv be e same again.. it takes two hands to clap.. now i juz leave it for her to decide.. to decide wat she want.. wat she will do wld depend on how much she care abt this frenship..

k lah.. tink i finish here le lah.. I WILL BE FINE~!!!!